Why do I cry

 BoA to spend a few days time to write the document finishing almost two years into his blog, quietly leaned back, a sense of sorrow and grief and sorrow filled my heart suddenly off. Perhaps there is too much recently too much, perhaps went to the year draws, maybe nearly two days in Beijing to the sudden cold, perhaps hh All in all, let me curl up in this sad and helpless feelings, body and mind can not extend to. look out the window in the morning also revealed a bit at the moment I do not know the first contraction in the sun where to go to sleep, I feel like the whole sky as full of gloom. would like BoA, is the hospital accompanied by her sister at the moment I do not know what is being done, not to eat? weather was to affect her mood, today's haze is the same as her sister's condition is more heavy heart? I sighed, and strive to straight backs, give yourself a smile, to disperse the heavy hanging over their useless dark mood, glad that they can laugh at a time when it seems that Gerry is buried in my lot of optimism factor, perhaps it is not yet dead end when? Maybe there is hope vista Village? shook his head, do not want to, after all, there are many things to do, difficult to be solved not by sighing, the more difficult the more tough, this is me, I need a positive attitude and high morale, take a deep breath , said to myself: Come on! Everything will be all!
back from the hospital yesterday to get some of BoA change of clothing. her sister is not very well this time surgery, the cancer had spread to the entire abdominal cavity, the terrible disease each days a little bit of devouring young life, and illness is a blessing that only afflicts people lying on the bed? BoA told me to call her sister when illness, broke down in tears, BoA few tears, no matter relatives or friends in front of her vulnerability, never want to be seen, in front of me the tears are only a few times, then a strong man may have to export a cathartic, BoA, after all, only two ten years old. the telephone, her voice choking, I Xinrudaoge, helpless say some comforting words, how can we heal the hearts of the pain? second operation from the sister to the present, she has been in the hospital care, almost around the clock, not peace of sleep, food flavors do not know. This time, her sister operation, because there are many things to me, so I could not with her. she was much thinner, his face haggard and pale. I looked at her, suddenly remember the first time to meet her and she just arrived in Beijing the way, do not know why, but then I always think the way to her first two years. The first time we met, she has not had 25th birthday, standing in the midst of the crowd before waiting for me, she, like a Kingston Topol, eye-catching figure is so tall and straight. At that time, she is expressive, free and easy, every day insensitive, is a no kid, just two years, experience too many too many things, time and heart in our eyebrows too many traces of carved, she is still so beautiful, but filled with the tired forehead and between the vicissitudes of life, I looked at her, the man who such as the Topol general of the woman, who was flying unrestrained personality who uninhibited children, all in all, all seems like yesterday. life she had too much to bear, how can those things is a twenty-year-old young woman can carrying the a's? heart aches, I do not know what the comfort, I have always been good at those comforting words, especially in times like this, even I do not know what to say, but hugged her, I hope I can give her arms moment of warmth and tranquility.
still not used to complain, no matter where, in front of, or in the paper. The total face to face, the solution must be resolved, hardships always the last it, life will always turn the page, every night, as the disease lying in bed and struggling people who pray, pray for a miracle will happen to us no matter how bumpy road ahead is still tough on the road the indomitable . remember a friend once told me a Jiyu, she told me: Di Di Polo Verse Verse Ke r Saha phrase Jiyu Bodhi, then things may turn for the better. is the fate of some, and perhaps would not help, and could not help but put their hope in something that seems so ethereal on, but it at least represents a belief in it, anyway, do not give up hope, life, is not correct because hopefully have a reason to go all the way up?
Tomorrow is the birthday of BoA over 27 years old, she could only stay with her sister in the hospital spent all these years, perhaps the most cold at this birthday, and only a white hospital and sister moaned as partners in pain, do not know what to send to the BoA, send a smile, with my deep thoughts and wishes.